More road blocks. What gives?

Hi everyone,

I’m back to going thru that really weird block again.  I think it’s fear of success.  Or could it be fear of failure?  Not sure.  I joined a women in business group and that is just fabulous.  Lots of great people all trying to help each other’s business.    However my phone and e-mail started blowing up.  I think I was also listed on facebook as an artist of the week.  I also had a well known company make fantastic comments on my work.  This all sent me in to the weirdest downward spiral.  Why?  These are all the things that I so wished to happen to me.  My goal is to become a full time professional craftsman and make all my stuff full time.  Why the weird block?  Any one else go thru this?  I just can’t explain it.  I  started ignoring my e-mails.  I won’t check my etsy site.  I have not made a bangle in over a month.  I just don’t know what to do with this.  I have a couple of books that I should re-read that talks about resistance and why we do this to block our success.  Ok.  I’m back.  I had to take a break and look at one of my books.  If you are on a quest to start your own business or figure out new work or a new life, I highly recommend this book:

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It’s called, I could do anything if I only knew what it was by Barbara Sher.  I read this book back in the early 90’s and it really helped me to become an artist and show my work.  It has taken me over 20 years or so to show my work.  It’s been a tough struggle for me.  I was always ashamed to show what I created.  Well….she talks about this resistance that I must be feeling.  I think I just hit it on the head.  I’m just plain ole scared!  I had one bangle come back from a customer.  I think I’m just feeling like no 0ne will like my work.  It means everything for me to make these bangles and my bangles are not as pretty as some people’s work.  Maybe I’m freaking my self out thinking that when I make something – it has to be super stellar or don’t bother making anything.  This is so not good.  Solution?  I read in another book and I can’t remember which one but it says when you are afraid to start something it’s because the task looks overwhelming.  If you break the task down and do the smallest part of it, you find that you can do more.   Example:  Exercise.  We all want to get started but It looks like just too much work.  But…if you start with just maybe jogging in place for one minute you find that you can do more and then the task is not so daunting.  OK.  I will take my own advice.  I’m going to go into my studio and even if I have to sit there all day, I’m going  to make something.  Just a small action – say arrange the bangles.  Then maybe I will want to start sanding them.  Does any of this make sense?  Probably not.

Meanwhile…I’m supposed to be putting together another post on how I make my resin bangle molds.  That is coming soon.  Plus I’m going to share some bangle making secrets like how to make striped resin bangles easily.

Thanks for reading!

KIM

Trying Not To Be Lazy

April 17, 2013

OK back to the subject of staying motivated.  My level is still negative 100.  I have not been in my garage studio since fall.  What’s up with that?  Too cold in Chicago.  It’s now April and the weather is starting to warm up so I better get my butt in that garage and start sanding stuff.  Oh the dread.  = – )  I have at least 100 or more bangles to sand and get listed on Etsy.  I have been the biggest loaf of bread this winter.  Time to do a major over haul and get organized.  What a task that is going to be.  No more fat and lazy!  It’s unacceptable.  Look!  Even Lou (Lucy) is fat and lazy looking out the window.  This is supposed to be one of my studios but the dogs insist on sitting on my work cabinets.  What a bunch of butt head they are!

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The next town over has an annual junk throw away day.  It’s a big recycling type event where everyone in the neighborhood can throw away anything.  It goes on for at least 3 weekends.  You can score kitchen cabinets, furniture, whatever.  It’s a great way to re-purpose old items.  I’m looking for tables and cabinets to redo my garage and get that organized in to a real studio.  One that is organized and efficient and where I can find all my tools and they are right in front and center instead of the disaster area that it’s in right now.  Ha ha  I’m sick and tired of searching and searching…where is that hammer?  Can’t find it.  What happened to my wire?  Oh yeah….there’s that bangle mold I’ve been looking for – for at least six months now.  Ugh!  I’ll keep you posted on my finds.

More Road Blocks!

April 12, 2013

I keep hitting road blocks.  For some crazy reason my Norton’s Antivirus decided to shut itself off which was completely annoying.  Found out that others have had this same problem.  I have no idea how to fix it.  It’s beyond my technical capabilities so I bit the bullet and bought a different Antivirus program so now I’m back up and running.  I keep waiting for the next shoe to drop.  Very frustrating.   I was just starting to get back on track and making a plan and sticking to it,  finishing products and getting them ready when…….WHAM!  No antivirus.  Sigh……

Now it’s tax time and in my mind it creates this anxiety.  I haven’t been able to work on anything.  Anxiety is the killer of creativity.    Of course I did my taxes at the very last minute like always and my printer would not work.  I couldn’t print copies of my taxes.  More sighs…….

I’m finished now so it’s time to get back on track.  I think I need to find ways to stay motivated as there seems to be so much to do and little time to do it.  I think I’m going to focus writing this blog on how to stay motivated.  Not that I’m an expert or anything but If I work on this maybe I can share what ever I learn in the process.  Right now at this moment, my motivation level is negative 100.  How can I change that?

 

Road Blocks!

Last September 2012 I hit a road block.  Actually a creative block.  I couldn’t produce anything.  It was the weirdest thing I’ve ever encountered and didn’t know what to do or how to help myself.  I think I got scared because I was starting to get a negative reaction to my work – my resin bracelets.  People were returning them and saying they were just too large.  I was devastated.  I was designing them with my own wrist and hand in mind which I found out is much bigger than the average woman.  I needed to resize my work which was so hard to do.  I had limited capital and needed to buy more polyurethane mold making material so I could create new designs.

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I did eventually buy more mold making material.  My plan is to buy a little bit each month and try to produce 6 new designs per month.  My next obstacle is that I’m in love with bright colors.  I realize not everyone likes bright.  I am trying to come up with more subdued designs too.  Here is an example:

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I’m still going to make all my bright colors!  I just can’t help it!  I’m in love with pink, red and orange!  I’ve started researching what are the hot colors for this year.  2013’s Pantone’s color of the year is Emerald!  So be sure to be on the look out for Emerald bangles on my Etsy site!